We are all broken.

Ok this is a tough blog for me to post. Whether we admit it or not, we are all broken. I need to share the past few years in a very brief way. I am not at liberty to share the whole story because some of you know me better and some of you know Jen better. If you want to judge either of us then that is up to you. We are both guilty and we have both been wronged by each other in the past 3.5 years. We both have made choices and mistakes that have drastically changed our lives and marriage. There is stuff that we could not control and stuff we could involved in our decision making. The main point is that we have separated now for the fourth time a few months ago. It all started with a rough pregnancy but the choices we made in the past few years are on us. I have been getting some messages based on my posts lately so I wanted to clear the air. We are legally separated and this marriage is unfortunately over. I say that with finality because that is what it is. We have joint custody of our 4 year old daughter and we both are great parents to her. Even from this you don't have the whole story, but I just ask you to pray for Lydia and for each of us. We need to be focused on her right now. We tried to reconcile 3 previous times and have been through christian counseling. It just hasn't worked so instead of advice I ask for prayer. Neither of us planned on being on this road but I wanted everyone out there to at least have an idea of our situation. We are all human and no one is perfect so please don't read into this or judge us. I am extremely sorry to people in my life (past and present) that I have let down. That being said, I have only shared the whole story with a couple people. That involves personal stuff about both of us and will be shared on a case by case basis only. On the plus side, she is an awesome mother to my child and her family is amazing as well. I am still me and She is still her. Like I said, we are all broken. Thank you for taking the time to read this.